i have applied to 74 jobs since being laid off in january. i have had 11 phone screens, 4 first-round interviews, and 2 final rounds. both finals went nowhere.
this is month five. i am not okay.
not looking for "the market is tough but keep going" because i know that. what i want is the actual mechanics of how people maintain enough function to keep submitting applications when every part of you wants to stop.
because here's where i am: i open LinkedIn and feel nothing. i have applications open in tabs i can't make myself finish. i went three days last week without applying to anything and then felt guilty on top of everything else.
some things i've tried: scheduled "application hours" in the morning only. worked for about two weeks then fell apart. treating it like a sales pipeline with a spreadsheet. this helped my tracking but not my motivation. taking a full week off. helped short-term but the anxiety of "losing time" made it worse.
the part that breaks me is the final rounds. you prepare for weeks, you show up, you think it went well. and then silence, then the email. that's a different kind of drain than a rejection from a cold application.
i'm a senior data engineer, 8 years experience, not a niche role. the fact that it's taking this long tells me something about the market and about how this year is going, but knowing that doesn't refill the tank.
what worked for you when you hit the wall?