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when a job rejection triggers something way bigger than disappointment

sam_recovering · 5 replies

this is going to be personal, fair warning.

i got a rejection two months ago after a four-round loop at a company i had genuinely fallen in love with. the role was perfect. the team seemed great. i thought i'd done the best interviewing of my life. the rejection came on a Friday afternoon, which felt almost intentional in its cruelty.

my reaction was not appropriate to a job rejection. it was the kind of heavy, full-body devastation that has a different address than 'i didn't get this job.' i couldn't get off the couch. i cried for two hours. my partner was concerned.

i've been in therapy long enough to recognize the pattern: rejection like this, when your identity is already tied up in the search, can hit old wounds. it's not just about the job. it's about every time you've been told no, or not enough, or not the right fit. the accumulated weight of a search comes for you all at once on the worst days.

some things that helped, slowly: let myself have the full Friday. did nothing productive. ate comfort food. watched something easy. gave the feeling space to move through instead of trying to outrun it. Saturday morning, wrote down three specific things i did well in that loop. not to dispute the outcome, just to document what was real. did NOT immediately apply to more jobs as a coping mechanism. that's a way of running, not recovering. told my therapist. she helped me separate what was about the job and what was much older.

i'm back to searching now. found two more companies i'm excited about. but i wanted to name this because 'rejection is hard' is an understatement for a lot of people and the forum doesn't say it enough: sometimes a rejection opens a trapdoor to something older and deeper and that's not weakness, it's just how humans work.

5 replies

marketer_mei

i name things for a living and couldn't have named this as precisely as you just did. 'the accumulated weight of a search comes for you all at once on the worst days.' yes. the rejection itself is the straw, the camel already had the whole load.

ops_omar

the 'did not immediately apply to more jobs as coping' note is something i really needed to hear. i use applications as a way to feel like i'm doing something. but sometimes i'm using them to not feel something. those are different uses of the same action.

sam_recovering

yes, exactly. and the difference is usually visible in the quality of the applications you send in that mode. i've sent some really desperate, unthoughtful apps in the aftermath of rejections. they don't serve you.

apm_aisha

thank you for being specific about what helped instead of just 'give yourself grace.' that phrase has started to mean nothing because people say it and don't tell you what it actually looks like. your Saturday morning exercise is concrete and i'm writing it down.

content_cole

three years out from my most brutal rejection (onsited at a place i wanted badly, heard nothing for two weeks, then got a form email). it was bad for a few days. now it's just data. i don't say this to minimize, i say it to promise: the acute phase does end.